Cancer is everywhere you go. Everyone has a story to tell whether it is about their family or someone they know. But cancer is taking the front line and no cure in site! My 10 year old black Lab has cancer and it is down to the day on making that “BIG” decision. I almost called my Vet today to say were coming over – but I couldn’t bring myself to make the call. Maybe tomorrow? This has been the worst week of my life. She has her medication to get her out of pain – so I know she is not suffering. But the quality of life for her is coming to an end. She sleeps most of the day. The mass is exposed skin on her chest and she wants to lick the mass which is the size of a golf ball. The smell is getting rancid. It’s like “the smell of death” this is why I know I only have days to be with her before she goes to heaven!
Posted by: sonomasoil | January 14, 2009
My dog has days to live!
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Hi SonomaSoil,
I happen to know Missa and can relate to your loss. Based on what I saw, you did the right thing as hard as it was to do. Just know that she is in a much better place and not experiencing any pain.
The pain will be felt by the people she left behind. I lost my mother not long back and my advice is to embrace your feelings by working through them as they surface.
Other than that, I still talk out loud to my mother and have short conversations with her. The hardest times is when I really wish she could answer me. I do feel as though she is my guardian angel and she will watch over Missa for sure.
God Bless……LAN
By: LAN on February 5, 2009
at 6:30 am
Thanks LAN: I feel I have done the right thing, however, there is a huge emptiness in my heart and here at home! It is outrageous to think just how much Missa was part of our lives. We really don’t know until there gone! The worst times of the day for me are first thing in the morning and last thing before bed. When you have a routine in place for 11 years and suddenly it changes, I don’t like the feeling it leaves in real time! I was accustomed to getting up in the morning by a cold nose nudging at my fingertips as to say “hey get up – I have to go potty” as I would open my eyes to find my beautiful Labrador retriever starring me in the eyes trying to get me up! At night before bed the last thing I would do is call out to Missa “Missa….. Do you have to go potty???” I would hear her nails click down the hallway coming towards me waiting at the back slider door. She would do her thing and quickly back in the house as I would be locking up and turning on the alarm. Missa would be going directly back to bed in my room on her bed 4 feet from my bed. It’s all different now. I have to get used to a new routine which cancels out everything I used to do! Yes, I am having a real hard time with this issue, but I have no other choice. Sometimes you have to just go with the flow! I miss her terrible and she will always have a special and dear memory in my heart! Peace~
By: sonomasoil on February 5, 2009
at 10:33 pm